well after last times electryfying performance i am back to tell you about my newest obsession,
but lets start from something much forgotten, i just remembered its 2nd anniversary of my blog so "Happy anniversary 2nd to me", (i tottaly forgot my 1st one ;)), they grow up so fast na, So whoever wants to wish i will be truly greatful to them,
And on another note, the obsession i was talking about was that "I have been writing poems", but it was just for frenz who were depressed, or if it was somebody's b'day, you will get to know about it all in my coming posts, but i also got know there are other kinds of poems also, which need not rhyme all the time, (no i have not been living under a rock), reason being, i only write simily's, it just that i got to know only couple of days before that there is one type of poem writing called Acrostic.
i got to know it from a blog buddy 'Anwesa', she has written a poem called Echoes Of Silence, its the best thing i have read, it like awesomeness at its best, i truly have to thank her cause i sat back and thought of giving acrostic a try, boy its hard, i gotta tell you i had to rack out every part of my brain to write the one you will read below, i also gotta thank Kajal cause she too has written one of the best acrostic poems i have read till date, i donno how they do that, but you guys write great yaar, truly great, thanx a lot for inspiring me, the below poem is for someone long forgotten.....
So here is what i wrote, please give me honest comments even if they are brutal, cause i wanna improve,
TAKE ME AS I AM
Tried forgetting about you a 1000 times
As always have failed miserably
Kiss me or kill me, its a choice for you to make
Even eternity will seem less, to take your love away from me
Move on, says everyone, how can they understand!
Echo of the past always comes to pull me back
Angel she was, others ask, "Angel is she?"
"Sinner i am of love" i say, and always will be
In my dreams i still see you, i just want you to come back
Abondenment i face, life seems like a lie Mirage were you or real?, its the only question i ask
The change that I told, which would take place in the blog, takes place from this post, there will be almost no dedications from here, if there is one, then just think that person had influenced me to change my life(again ;)), so that’s it, let’s get started, shall we??
Once when I was watching a Roadies audition, raghu asked a question to a guy saying, “what’s the most incredible experience happened to you?”, the guy answered “I have kissed a girl underwater i.e. 10 feet below sea level”, the guy was obviously telling a lie, and so he got totally screwed by raghu, I want to participate in the auditions of roadies next year, so I dint wanna say a fancy lie and get screwed, I was determined of telling the truth (@ least this time ;)), later when I was listening to farhan akhtar singing Socha Hai(have you thought of?) , I gave the socha hai a lil thought, I asked myself “what’s the most incredible thing happened to me?”, I thought hard, and when nothing but a headache came, I left the thought there,
but still the question pestered me, I sat back and did the Socha hai again, (ting) a bulb glowed, (I think you know which one ;)) an old memory came where once I had met in an auto accident, after which my grandmother was hospitalized who was in the same auto, she got 2 BIG scars, but nothing had happened to me, I escaped without a scratch (I still feel jealous of my grandmother though, lucky her :D), but one fine day (i.e. couple of days back) I got the answer for that question..
I had my exam, and after finishing the herculean task ;), I had come home at around 8 in the evening, I had no idea, what the next hour would bring into my life, I freshened up, and then sat down on my comp to write a Blog post, and to get a lil relaxed I was also listening to songs with my earphones, my system is beside the TV, so mom was watching a serial on it, 8.20 on the clock and I heard a earth shattering sound on my ear phone (dhadamn), I felt horrible pain, like a couple of hammers brutally hitting my ears, I was also not wearing any slippers and I got a severe current shock from the ground, I let out a loud scream, power went off and I saw the system was still on, so I cut its power, I checked my ears first, by saying “hello testing”, “hello testing”, you won’t believe but that’s the exact words that came out of my mouth, I felt at ease when I could hear the words ok,
In this chaos, I saw my dad hitting something with furious force, I got to know that a lethally venomous snake had crawled into the house, and dad had killed it, it had come when the power went out, it could have bitten each and every member of my family that day, I could have died that day, the experience of the snake and lightning jolted me so bad, that I was shivering from head to toe.
Later I got to know that the lightning which had hit, had hit to a power grid, by which there was a power surcharge, as we were also watching TV when the lightning hit, we checked it to see if it was all right..
We got know that it was toast, mom came and sat beside me and asked me “can you hear all right?”, my uncle said “close your one ear and test your ears again”, to my horror I found out that my left ear which had a burning sensation, was hearing less, I said this to mom, she said “don’t worry it’s because of the shock, try it out in the morning, if it’s not better, we will visit a doctor”, I was still in the shock from the experience, when my friend jasmine called me. I said to her what had happened to me, and she was full of concern, she forgot what she had called for and asked me if I can hear all right, I said yeah, she advised me (literally dragged me ;) from the phone, and told me to have a glass of milk, without sugar or anything sweet added to it, I said “that’s gonna be horrible, I haven’t drank milk without sugar in my life, why should I do that?”
She said “you got a current shock na, it will help calm your nerves down,” I said “I won’t”, she said “you have to, thousif you have to” and I couldn’t say no to her, I said “yeah I will do it” and she said “go to a doctor tomorrow” and after some more talking, she cut off the phone, later I boiled a glass of milk and gingerly drank it, thinking how horrible it will be, but to my surprise it was not as bad as I thought it was, I felt better, but still the shivering dint go, I was shivering so much that, tears were coming out of my eyes, not because I was crying, but because the shivering was making my body to cry, god it was horrible, and even when I think about it now, it feels as bad as it had been on that day,
I got up in the morning and checked my ears, (again with the ‘hello testing’ thing ;)) to my relief they sounded all right, and the burning sensation was also gone, my parents asked me how I feel, I said, I am ok, later when I sat down and thought about it, I felt the whole experience has left an emotional scar in my brain.
But now I can proudly say to raghu when I meet him, my most incredible experience, about how I was hit by the ‘shock’of the lightning, and how I almost died that day, and how I almost became deaf, worst day ever, but experience gained none the less yeaaaahhhh(read the ‘yeah’ in a devilish manner)……. :D
Take care guys you wouldn’t want a lightning to hit you lol, c ya
Referring to the famous Bryan Adams song, my life felt the same way, but the year is 2009,
Summer of 2009 will be the best days of my life, one being the last(best) days of college life(read my earlier posts), and another being about me finding my true self, and learning some lessons about life, yeah I know it’s a little late, but better late than never right?, the truly life changing experience came because of me reading blogs, it’s as simple as that, yeah I know you may say “you are writing a blog from last year and not reading blogs, that’s like a crime”, yeah I know and I am guilty as charged, actually I tried reading a couple of blogs in the past but dint find anything interesting, SLAP…… (That’s me slapping myself) I sometimes lie, that’s one more thing I gotta change about myself, anyways let’s get back to the topic, as I was saying, I got to know about my true self, I gotta tell you, it has been one hell of a experience, cause just as much as you get to know others by reading about their blog, you actually get to know more about you, don’t believe me, go read the blogs stated below and you will know for yourself,
All these blogs have their own uniqueness, but every one of them relate to my life, cause somewhere I find myself relating to this person, either in a good way or in a bad way, but mostly it’s for the good,
It’s not like something happens like this every time, these experiences, which these (awesome ;)) persons share, are just day to day experiences, but they have changed my life, I will tell you in sequence how exactly they have changed my life for the better,
The 1st blog to change my life was Sayesha on the rocks, Man I gotta tell you, this the best place to find a laugh, I envy her some times, this blog is so funny, you will be laughing for days,( I am laughing even now ;)) I wondered can life be good, can it be lively? but this person answers that question with her blog, this doesn’t mean that her life is perfect, it has its holes for her, but she just goes with the expression, ‘go with the flow’, finding humor in every aspect of life, taking every situation in a positive manner, and living life to the fullest.
Lesson learnt about life from the blog: Be Positive, even if life kicks you in the A**. Thx Sayesha :)
#2 blog to change my life: My Space This is a typical teenager blog, here you will find, the sweet memories you once made yourself in your teens, but the life experiences of Ramya are so finely detailed in her blog, you have to read it to get to know what I am saying here, she takes joy in every little happiness that comes into her life, which I tended to ignore in my life, I just thought “what’s the use of the little things which give you happiness??, I just want the big one!!”, I waited and waited but the Big one never came, and all I got was sadness but now I have changed my view and find joy in the little good things that come in my life. And believe me it feels good.
Lesson learnt about life from the blog: Be happy in the little joy’s that come into your life, don’t waste your life trying to find a big one, Never ignore always adore. Thx Ramya :)
#3 blog to change my life : Amith - Me being me This is the best blog I have read about one’s life, be it his thoughts which came to him on a sleepless night (they were gr8)( I love the theory), be it on facing a awkward situation (you know which one amith ;)), or the best, about being 'aTrue Guy' about valentine’s day, this guy knows what to do, when to do, and exactly how to do it, he will make you know what life is, even though he is rock solid in his beliefs, he is really humble, and real sweet, but he is best in his own ways, I just chatted with him twice and it’s the best chat I have had in years, I have just known him from his blog, but he is the most interesting human being I know, this guys knows exactly what he wants from life and is the coolest person I know.
Lesson learnt about life from the blog: Be sweet, be humble, but be a 'ROCK WALL' at what life throws at you. Thx Amith ;)
#4 blog to change my life: Tales of a lunatic teenager This is the blog which just hits you where it hurts the most, your heart, it’s brutal; it’s touching, and it’s the best at what it does, every post she has on her blog is as honest, and as daring as one can be, she knows her values but, is a rebel, the rebel being part is the best thing about her, I have just read a couple of her posts and her thoughts are awesome, may it be personal ,may it be social, there is just no getting away, you will want to look into yourself and about certain things, you will feel bad about you, which you will certainly change, and become better, it’s that good, hats off to you girl really, hats off, you are the best at what you do….
Lesson learnt about life from the blog: Change yourself, but always for the better. Thx QM :)
#5 blog to change my life: Not a Girl, Not yet a women This is another blog which thought me, what life is, but more importantly it thought me what it can be, cause after reading her blog I got to know, she is the most fearless person I have seen, she doesn’t give damn about what others think about her, and just goes making this world a better place (Star bucks remember?? ;)) she is the most confident person, I have ever seen, err read ;), but yeah if you read her blog, you will all know what’s missing in your life, and you will definitely learn a thing or two, before I read this blog, I thought much about others, about what they think about me?, but now I learnt the lesson,
Lesson learnt about life from the blog: Live your life as you want, let opinions go to hell. Thx Patrice :)
#6 Blog to change my life: Passing Clouds As simple as this blog seems, it really has its strong points, may it be about showing this nation’s problems or may it be how she misses her frenz, it’s simple but effective, which makes a difference, well it also brought a very good change in my life, thought me a very valuable lesson
Lesson learnt about life from the blog: Bring a sense of responsibility in you. Thx Gayathri.
Lastly, but never the least, The #1 person in my life: Jasmine (Debaraty majumdar)
Jasmine brought everything into my life, I owe everything to her, my happiness, my smiles, my friends and ultimately my life, she changed my world for all the better things that have come into my life, she is the person I trust most on, the definition for that is my friend abhishek(aka xsystem) once asked me “who would you take a bullet for?” I can say that now and forever without a doubt that “I can (literally) take a bullet for jasmine, any time any day”, it’s ‘that much’ she means to me.
She is my bestest friend in the whole world. Period. So these are the gifts I wanna give her
They are pure platinum jasmine ;),
You guys brought a change to my life and my world, from the bottom of my heart I thank, all you guys, have a nice day take care……